YSunday, September 04, 2005
i studied the whole nite at the aiport yday til about 5am when i found out that my sis got admitted in the hospital cuz of asthma...rushed there by cab..cost freakin 11bux!!
wut a waste!
it's coz of the midnyte charge and the additional 3bux cuz the cab was from the airport..
then wen i was in the cab i read the list of xtra charges and gez wat?! midnyte charge only last till 6am..and the time wen i board the cab was actually 5.55AM!!!! argh.
when i reached the hospital my eyes was half open so i took every opportunity to get some shut eye..yepz..i eventually dozed off for abt an hour outside the observation ward.heh.
wen i woke up..everyone was practically lookin at me..wth.
then i continued sleepin wit my sis in the ward..haha.
i cant be bothered by wat ppl might think..just too exhausted..
i found out that she was hurt by kak sha cuz she didnt wana spend her bday wit us..
uh well..to me it's her decision cuz it's her bday after all and all that we can realli do is just be fair to her..totally up to her on how to spend tis special day of hers isn't it?
it just shows how much we actually mattered to her on her special day.tsk
o yeah!
there are SIX ppl in the ward..3 of wic are malay..there's tis old lady opposite my sis..
very pitiful..she cant barely talk and kept wanting to puke..
the nurses there are TOTALLY unfriendly..and they seem to be ignoring her..
then there was a tym wer she choked on her food or sth and kept coughing..
they didnt attend to her altho they were infront of her(bitches)..
i cant help just waychin so i helpd her sooth her back and gave her water..i cant bear to c such treatment.im so not gona let my mum go to CGH if she's sick..
i smsed him today cuz i was totally bored at the hosp wit my sis stoning and getting all emotional and me getting all zombified..
it was clear that wat i felt yday was true.
he is unhappy.
he just pratically wana be loved and have someone to love.
and that someone isn't me.
he's still into her..and just want a relationship that's serious now...
i gez now is the time for me to wake up now aye?
like wat irfan told me..
"the more you think of him or her, the more you head back to square one"
all the more im not sure what i should do..
wat should i do??
i just don't understand why humans always want something that they can't have..
despite the hurt and dissapointments that he/she have caused..
why do I always want the relationship back..?-something that i can't have
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